Why modeling? Why I model

Some people have  different opinions on modeling.  Hear is why I model. Its not because I think I am better then any one.  I am just a person like ever one else no better no less. I am confidant in the fact that I am flawed. Flawed  is human. I believe every one should feel beautiful tall, short, thick, or thin.  I dont think there is anything wrong with feeling beautiful. I think Every women should feel beautiful. And I think  there is nothing wrong in feeling confidant. There is a big difference in confidence and arrogance in my opinion.  growing up I was not as confidant as you would think .. I was and still am some times insecure about who I am . I think thats just part of life for every one. growing and figuring out  where you stand in life. The world is always changing  and you can ether get left behind or grow and change with it. I always loved modeling and fashion I  had a pretty active imagination and liked to get dressed up and put on fashion shows for my grandmother. People told me I should try modeling So I asked my parents. I Heard a add on the radio one day  I was like 13 and it was for a  talent scout agency called Top Models Texas so I went to the casting call and they picked me to go to Texas I had to pay my way out there. I did not get picked for anything and came home empty handed. I did  however have the training they thought us .  I  was later told not to go to anything on the radio that they were most likely scams. is this true I dont know most likely lol But later I heard about the modeling and acting School John Robert Powers I asked my mom  and dad to let me go.  It was a grate learning exspirance  I also learned that modeling can be a very cut throat type of business.  One minute your on top the next your not. This is my own personal exspirance  it may be different for others but I struggled making friends  the girls were mean and talked behind each others back. Given if you are actually  in this to model your not in it to make friends you have to have a thick skin. But I honestly did not like it. you also need to learn  to hear the word " you are not what we are looking for" I heard this a few times. It can be hard for selfestem.  But you need to believe in your self  take it as a learning exspirance and  keep pushing on. I joined an agency and got a few gigs hear and there. later I got married and Now I have 2 kids. Modeling is  still a passion of mine. I believe that strong  women build each other up and dont tare other women down. I  believe in respecting my self. I also learned you can be very pushed around  and stepped all over. You must learn to stick your grown and speak up for your self.  Modeling is a grate way to express your  self to tell story's threw photos. I love the creative side. Modeling is not who I am but it is A  part of me it has taught me to believe in my self to stand up for my self and to stand my ground.  It taught me to be OK in my own skin. Its OK to feel beautiful to be confidant and to inspire others to feel beautiful as well. This in a short vision is why I model.